I still remember when we met

I still remember when we met,
a tear rolled out of your eyes
Your broken self and flooded heart,
Left my shoulders wet in tears.

And till this day I feel your head
Still resting on my shoulder
My heart still bleeds
-tears of blood at your pain
and your despair

I still remember several times,
as life kept burdening you with pain,
I tried my best to share it all,
and wipe it off like the torrent of rain

And as the time went by and by
and healed you off from all your pain,
And smiles returned and laughter turned
your anguished face in a glowing rose,
I smiled with an inward glow at a job
done with some perfection,
and basked in the glory of
self satisfaction.
And now that you have healed and gone,
I miss your every reaction--
the booming laughter radiant smile,
the evening tea and careless strolls,
The warmth,affection, tenderness
of the sharing, caring tender face;
I miss you dearly now you'v gone
beyond my reach
and on your own.
I wish I could say it one time
I wish I could touch you one time
I wish I could rest my head
and shead a little silent tear
I wish i could tell you ......,
that I was not,
a punching bag or soaking sponge,
and wish I could express my love,
before you got up
and were gone.
But my lips were always sealed
and my eyelids did not flutter,
and now I live in lonliness with,
all those words..
I could not utter.